| leftoftheclock-for what its worth i meant every word that left these dull lips.....the mark you left is a bloody reminder of happiness....the time we spent together means nothing now that hes in the picture...oh well my life is only an unhappy moment in time...the dye is only temperary but these scars are permanent.....all i have is memories and for some reason those memories are misconstruied into hatred for a time that we called ours.....
DYE- soft green eyes i try and force to be dark and strong...the only problem is im not....a facade is all i can show to prevent something from infiltrating this heart held together by adhesive tape and twine....what happens to me depends on how tonight goes...losing love faith and compassion for myself i only consider a downside to living....im running away but its never been clear what im running from..... |
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| FORGOTEN-Ive almost forgot what your face looks like...then something as simple as a word can bring you into focus....its strange to think of life without you....yet its strange to think of living with you.....I find that you hide in all the right places only to emerge when i hit the cold concrete and i have nothing left....maybe this time...no for sure this time....and then i back out...yet you always remain there...eyes oblvious to the hell i put myself through...what is it about you i cant escape what does all of this mean...i think i found my true love only this time remind me not to stray to far from your presence...cause life without you is hell...........
THANK YOU- Friends dont mean anything when all thats left is a half cigarette and a chess board and to think she cared....from now on things will change if only for a moment i lost respect and gaining it means something i cant grasp....the smoke from my pursed lips leaves an awful taste much like your empty kisses....the moon hangs over head so bright its almost blinding....and i see for once the beauty of life thousands of miles from where i sit.....the misquetoes(sp?) suck the blood that once dripped from my skin for you.............
TITLED- One more drink and then lets talk...my nerves are overwhelming and the blood running through my veins is untainted making my situation worse....the life line of my cigarette slowly shortens as i inhale.....smoke dances from my mouth and nose and disappears.....now what was i going to say....i was never good with words...everything is so clear in my head, but my mouth dosent do any of that justice....
REVOLVER- I spin the chamber...five clicks a loud noise followed by sudden silence...the silver cylinder drives deep into my head...blood exfoliates out of my pours and once green eyes drip red tears.....the dark maroon splattter on the floor resembles a life of pain and saddness.....REWIND...a movie style life in a backwards fast pace motion...STOP....PLAY...and now i can start over from where i stoped....EJECT....i fucked up one to many times......
-JAMES TYLER- |
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| IF ANY ONE IS LOOKING FOR OR KNOWS SOMEONE LOOKING FOR A NEW/USED CAR TRUCK OR SUV EMAIL ME AT
James_Tharp_Parkway@hotmail.com if you refer someone to me and they buy a car i will mail you a hundered dollar check (James_Tharp_Parkway is how it reads) |
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| well training at my job is going great.....and long.....but whatever......i get to start selling cars this week so if anyone needs a new car......buy one from me....later |
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| well i got a job.....a good job....i now am selling cars at parkway chevorlet in tomball texas.....good money.....i get my own office...and damn i actually am doing something instead of sitting around complaining about how i dont have a job......and im proud of myself....i win......anyway...things seem to be looking up finally and im happy to be able to say that......well im going to go smoke a cigarette so later |
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